I have loved you for many years
Maybe I am just not enough
faberry au: rachel documents her and quinn’s life together. quinn is incredibly camera shy.
And kids, that’s how i met your mother.
(“I want to support you.”) | (“You’re my best friend and I wanted you to be happy.”)
Faberry, why ?
Because : 183 reasons taken from each episode.
(2x20) - (5x17)
gardenias - secret love
queen’s lace - sanctuary
I didn’t realize that I love you
Till the day that you stopped lovin’ me
I didn’t realize that I cared for you
Till I heard the news that you’re leaving me
Can we also just talk about the fact that earlier in this scene, Quinn says, “Rachel was Finn’s soul mate.” Not, “Rachel and Finn were soul mates.” or even, “Finn was Rachel’s soul mate.”
This has been driving me crazy since I watched the scene and I think I finally figured out why:
Sure, Rachel could have been Finn’s soul mate, and I think that’s a fair assumption for Quinn (I don’t believe it for a second) to make, and it probably took a lot for her to admit, but Finn was never Rachel’s.
Let’s be honest here, Quinn has always been very concerned about the social hierarchy, her status, and for some reason she has always considered boys as stepping-stones for a secure future. She relies on them. She preaches independence but needs Finn in order to win prom queen. Sometimes I can’t tell if she’s a hypocrite or a genius that knows how to get what she wants.
Now, here’s the thing, when it comes to Rachel, she absolutely cannot and will not stand to see her settling. As someone who once LITERALLY described her future as working in real estate while her husband owned a tire shop, which to her I’m sure is the epitome of a Lima Loser, she is dead set on not allowing Rachel to fall victim to that life. She pushed Rachel to move on from Finn and when that didn’t work, she pushed Rachel to hold off on their wedding.
Even though Quinn was willing to settle with Finn in Lima, she’s always known that he wasn’t her soul mate, just like she’s always known that Finn wasn’t Rachel’s soul mate, either. When Puck asks her who her soul mate is, she doesn’t answer.
What’s amazing to me is that she probably knows that Rachel is her soul mate, and maybe she knows that she could be Rachel’s as well, but she’ll never admit it. She’s been brutally honest with Rachel on just about everything, but not that. Because for Quinn Fabray, the only thing more heartbreaking than settling is rejection. And I think that’s heartbreaking in itself, because she’s still going to end up settling. This girl, this complex, insecure, beautifully tragic girl will settle with a stepping stone rather than take a risk to be with her soul mate.
She’ll never have Rachel so she runs after Puck.
And that fucking drives me crazy.
Brittany gets it.
This is Faberry. This is the best scene Glee has ever had.
And it’s all because Dianna Agron was offering something entirely different to the rest of Glee: a layered complexity to villain Quinn Fabray, who managed to be honest and true only in this scene with her rival. The intensity of it - it could have all been just a nasty exchange as the other ones they had during season 1 - is all in Dianna Agron’s gaze and in Dianna Agron’s breaking voice and in Dianna Agron’s intonations, to the extent that Lea Michele can only react to it in a way that seems truthful but oblivious to the layered subtext (whatever it is, we don’t know, we can only imagine), exactly like Rachel Berry (who is honest but oblivious) would react. So we have truth in this scene, and the most meaningful message that Glee has ever given us, because these girls are living parallel lives, and only Quinn Fabray seems to be aware of it. We get more than rivalry. We get more than a love triangle, or at least we get to the actual depth of the love triangle. What we get is a a consistent dynamic between two characters who fuel and inspire each other beyond every petty quarrel over teen love and popular boys. This consistent dynamic is the best that Glee has ever offered, yet Glee preferred to dishonor it and to play it down, to laugh it off and to break it up just because it’s easier to write subtext (of whatever kind) and pretend it’s all in the minds of people who are nuts. Faberry never existed? No, Faberry exists in this scene. It doesn’t matter if you see a romantic layer to the subtext or if it’s something else other than romance. This is Faberry. It’s up to the viewers to interpret what they see here.
But the truth of this scene remains. And, even though it was well written for once in Glee and the parallels it opened up were explored (get it right in season 2, get it right in season 3; on your way in season 2, on my way in season 3), the scene belongs mostly to Dianna Agron.
Dianna Agron as Quinn Fabray in episode 5x12 of Glee “100”